berdesup ja aku balik ari kames aritu...bas pkul 230 kol 2 da terpacak kt bas  station..x sabaq gila nk balikk...berkobar2 ati konon nk balik stdy puas2 laa..arini da sabtu...still alhamdulilah aku stdy skeett hehehe..tort x abeh lg,,kna jugak bg abeh rini..mlm kang ley pgang consti plakk....tp bley plak aku stdy dpn tv...aku mcm x bley stdy senyap2 nie...kna gak bazir elektrik buang singgit dua....cne la hosmate2 kt umh tu kann...stdy byk ka dorg ataw buang masa ka dorg hhheeee...msti pulun stdy...skg pon aku dok buang masa tgk tv sat, online sat p goreng nasi satt pastu mkan dpn tv lg....apa pon moga aku dpt hafal apa yg tlah bljaq kann..aminn

aku geram dalam dok x sabaq nk blik umh bley plak x bwk balik deodorant...gggrrr...ni pasal kalut sgt nk blik cz bas ieda kol 2..aiiyyarrkk...tp tiak gua x hangit...maintain wangi...tp tetap kna bli gak sketoi sbb nati nk p datin2 mn  bley x pkai

just now i was blog walking from another blog to another blog n another n another..mostly from my batch la...kedah mari hahaha...stalker blog2 depa tuhh...n there was this blog dat really attract my full at-10-tion...her entry was bout her father..late father...she lost her father during d independence day which was during d ramadhan but before hari raya...it is so sad...i know how she felt..cz i exprienced d same way she felt...now i know why she didnt tke her MLS test...i heard maie told mdm sue'aida she was absent cz of family matters...n it was her father...i read her entry n it was closed to make me shed my tears...this was some part of what she wrote

my father left me during d independent day bcoz of heart attack
my father left without saying anythin to me
my father left me all alone
my father left me when we r going to celebrate d hr raya
my father left me without even c me as we las c each other was 2 months ago

 my father also left me without saying anytin.. i just had d chance to whisper to him kalimah " lailahaillallah" thru d fon...he left me when there's only a few more days left b4 i came back to finish my holidays with him..
he left me when i was in kuantan struggling 4 my exam...he left me without see me 4 his last time (mak was so lucky to b there by his side)..i can no longer salam him when i want to go outside of penang by bus..he is no more to clebrate raya together with, clebrate his besday which is d same with ct nurhaliza n there is no more word " p ngn abah" when we go there, here or anywhere....

 my fren there must be feel so miserable rite...cz i know d feeling...it's so painful that it can only be cured when our father stand in front of us smiling as he is healthy as he was younger before...but no..there's no such thing in diz world...u can only dream of him but cannot have him anymore...

 to marvianna.....though u wont read dis blog but i pray dat u will be a really strong n tough girl..allah wont choose u if he knows dat u cannot bare this challenge...tke gud care of ur mom cz that is what left to us...make her happy..that is what im trying to do despite the problems that always make her susah hati thinking what would happen to her children if allah invites her to accompany abah...allah, u know d best for each of ur creation...aahh also to shubby for her late mother....suma org nk pegi time ramadhan nie...bertuahnya mereka...beri kami ketabahan ya allah melalui hari2 yg mendatang tanpa yg tersayang d sisi

smlm dpt blik umh...kol 4 lebey tolak dr umh sewa pastu kol 6 bru bas tolak ke penang..yyaahhuuuu beznyaaa...x sabar tggu time raya nii msti lg feel kan tgk kt bus station tu rmai org tgk suma org nk balik...walau x posa smlm tp prot aku lapaq kalah org posa...sket lg mcm nk gastrik..ngada2 lak prot niee...bas plak bley x benti lgsg...kalu ley gak bli mknan..nk bli kt sek 17 mlaz nk agkut msuk bus...end up smpai kt jeti almost 1130..skali dia p jambatan dlu daa...hiissshhh..kalu taw aku benti kt juru x payah p naek jmbatan....bley aku smpay umh awl...
 
 pastu aku mak n kak aku p mkn kat tman robina tuhh...da upgrade kdai tu nmpaknyaa...tp servis lmbt cam kambenn..x bokak posa lg ka weeyyy!!...kol 12 x da org pon wat keja lenggang2...ulek mayang yg rmai org pon servis tetap superb..aku mkn fish n chip..tp kdekotnyaa kcik ja portion dia...skepin ja fillet...tp naseb baek dkat2 nk abes mkn tuh nmpak abg hensem kt tpt wat aer hekhekhekk..abg ka sebaya ekk??..muka sweet2 gituu...trus mata aku yg tgk 3 abdul kt astro beralih kt mamat tu kann...dia keja kt blkg rupanya..tah2 dia yg masak mknan lmbt tuhh....bley kata tgk x berkelip arr...tp control2 laa kan...pastu dia mkn dkat dpan meja kami mkn tp dia x ngadap aku iiisskkkk...nmpak blkg dia jaa laa...takat tu ja la aku ley usha diaa..tp aku heran abg wat air n amik order mcm nmpk ja aku dok usha mamat tuhh...dok men jeling2 ngn aku plakkk...iisskkk malu2....

 rini jumaat aku posa dok terbyg2 mknan..sket lg ja nk amik tepung wat lempeng ka cucur ka pa2...lopa posa rupanyaa...x feel lgsg ramdhan kali ni aku x taw napa...ni la taun pertama posa abh x da...laen feel dia...cne la nk bukak posa japgi kann...kami berempat jaaa...dulu lpas smyg jumaat kalu aku dok lam blik dia balik dr smyg jumaat dia mai blik tgk dok wat apa...pastu sembang2...aku ni kuat mkn...aku mintak la mcm2...dia akan glak ja...pastu p bazaar borong makanan mcm stok semggu..tp sok tu p bli lg...duet kluaq mcm ayaq..sian abh menangisi duet dia yg kluaq...tp dia ckp byk pahala bli utk org bukak posa nie hehehhe......ohh rindunyaa ya allah..ni bru hari ke 3 posa...pastu terawih plakk...kalu ada moreh dia bawk blik tuh serbu mcm lalat berebot2 mkn..

rini nk mkn apa xtaw laa...tinginnya ayam panggang..ssluurrrppp...hhaaiihh sabar2....skg bru kol 4..aku dok sorg2...suma kuaq p mn x taw...abh ada kan ley teman aku...ni yg wat aku nk p dating niee...ahh ahad ni nk kna blik da...bosaannyyaa...btol la ckp fida rs mcm nk benti bljar dok kt umh ja wat apa yg ptot...tggu org minang...calon bykk...ntah law ni kena ngn jiwa aku ka x wallahualam...x mau balikkkk!!!...huhh..x pa x pa lg 2 mggu nk blik plak sblom raya..wwwweeeeeeeeeeeee!!!

mn lg baekkk...mn bez lg...aku lopa sok aku klas 830 smpay 7 ptg...btolkahh ataw itu klas miggu depan...tp aku rs esokkk...huhhhh brain jammed...aku lg suka brain freezed....sjokkk...hangat x bezz...trokk plakk sjak2 niee...aku ni pon mkin mngada2..cpt sgt letey...ya allah beri la aku kekuatan...tu mak aku ckp...bguzz mak aku nie...pk positif...dia x bg aku mengeluh dia suh aku doaa aku dpt hadapi cbaran2 kt uitm niee...patot la dia gumbira kan walaupon deep inside dia sdih...btol ka??suka ati ja aku nie..tp tah...x da sapa taww melaenkan allah...oh allah kuat dan tabahkan la dia..dia sj yg aku ada..dia sj yg tgl utk aku...dia la kekuatan ku ....moga ada ramadhan yg ke 100 tahun buatnyaa hekk3...
 
 aahhh balik pd klas td...org yg bertggungjwb wat klas kol 7 tu adalah laoshi!!!!...mandarin...xkan nk khatam 1 buku da esokk...dedikasi tol ckgu tuh...tp dia x lawk...klas akan jd suram dan otak akan jam dan akan ada kebarangkalian utk pegi tndas byk kali utk ilang bosan dan akan wat sesuatu yg di luar jangkaan....oh ini manyak penat...itu otak mawu jamm..jam trafik jam bukan jam strawberi...bakpo  aku malaih ngat sejak2 niee....da bapa mggu bg keja sok lusa nk anta tp arini nk wat???...apa bnda niee...tp kwn2 aku relax jaa...bguih depaa...aku ni runsing sntiasa..mcm nk bnti amik law ni huhhhh...kawen kan sng....msak,tgk tb, bsuh baju, sapu sampah, jln2 ngn laki, tdo wat anakk...x yah sesak otak pk asgment...skg ni pon ada msa lg wat luahann prasaan...oh kalu la blog ni bley bercakap mmg akan jd peneman setia aku...

 ohh mlaaazzzznyaa mak nokkss

da lma x wat luahan perasaan...aahhh lg sunuk bc blog org dr wat blog sndirikkk..aku-saket-prott..sblum2 ni mmg wajibal ghunnah aku akn melabur selalunya waktu pg sblum naek bus p klass skurg2 nya sekali sehari...tp sjak bulan tgh mengambang nie dia x melabur sehari ke 2 hari tahh.....n td yes alhamdulilah terlabur jugak saham...tp saham itu x baekk...kuar darahhh laaa...tp bukan drahh period tuhh...usus ku mcm luka huk3...sdeyh tgkkk...ni da kejadian ke brapa tah...buasirr ka ituu...umoq bru x smpai 20...xmau la ada pnyakit2 cmtuh..
 wat serabut otakk jaa...aku da telan 800 ml pg td sbb nk bg lancar punya pasall!!...kembon peghott

 skg ni byk betol kejadian berlaku sekeliling aku..ada yg ptus cinta la, kena rampook laa, kes nk diet la, kes marathon posaa laa (len kali posa awl2 kang x yah byr fidyah kt mintak sdekah kt psar mlm seksyen 7) n byk lg...nk glak pon ada sian pon ada...mcm2 warna yg mewarnai aku skg niee...asgment lak sepasall...mcm susah btol sem niee...malaihh aku plak makin menjadi...mengapakah begini..pemalaz tahap moyang babun..kalu tdoq lg la..mcm ulaq sawa melingkar..mak ular lam umh ni of koz la fidaa!!!!...haha...kalah mak2 ular yg laen..

 nex week da posa...tp sempat ka aku posa hahha..bulan dok cerah mengambang niee...nk balik ka x ehh nex wee..ley gak posa ngn fmily...tp lg bapa mggu ja nk blik raya...x sbar nk sooppinn soppinn dan soppin...tp uhukkk...rya ni mesti x bez kan..abh x dakk...posa pon x bez...slalu aku ngn abah la tukang p pasr mlm bli bukak posa sama2...sopiinn mknan baek punya...keliling psr mlm byk kali...tp taun ni x dak dahh =(..kalu aku p pasr mlm msti aku tgk kubur kt msjid bertentang pasr mlm tuhh...msti abh tgk ank dia p pasr mlm gak kann...hurrmmm...how? how? wuwuwuw sob sobb....ok x pa...mak ada...moga dia pnjg umur dpt tgkk cucu dr 4 4 anak dia hueh3..amin

haa shopin mmg bez...kalu sibu lam tgn x smpai sejam bley abess..uuhhuuu itu lah pompuan...pompuan suka shopin shopin suka pompuan..napa pompuan suka cmni??...oohh jgn ngaku x suka shopin...itu sgt penipuann...kalu tobat x mau shopin mggu depan mmg x igt tobat tu dah..isk3 pompuan...( bru tgk iklan libresse..wwooww mcm bezz)...tgk da tergoda lg...yaa..rini aku da tershopin lebih had...tu pon ada g benda yg aku tingin nk bli...tp terPAKSA tahann..arrghh mcm tgk piza keju meleleh leleh berbenang benang  time bolan posa...puas mmg puas tp mcm ada sumtin x kena...haaii dr dok dlm bus smpai kesudah x jupo mslhnya..msti sbb rs byk duet kuar kann..aku sblum ni bgga selama 2 mggu kerna dptt thn dr shopin bukan2...tp..arini brubah sgalanya..dasat...sekali shopin mcm cover 2 mggu sbelum niee

 tp mak x mrh..hui3...oh sy mau cpt pulang...fida sunuknya hg da smpay umh da bergumbira bersama burger hg kan...isk3 rindunya...x pa sabarrrrr kang nati jiwa saket merebak ke sakit jiwa..xnak mcm tuu...astagfirullahalazimmmmm...

 aahh aku keseorgn di umahh...bosan sbb x da org...tah org umh bila taun nk blikk...ffiidaaaaaaaaa napa ko balik tgl aku hahhh...x pa sok da x boring..so nk jlan2 lg...but no more shoping...maybe
 aku kena byk jlan sbb aku da gmok sgt..haaiihh

arini bru 5 ari aku kt shah alam....aku da rindu sgt kt dia...sgt T_T...smpay menitis air mata bila igt kat dia...aku x mau dok shah alam..aku x taw napa....ati ni x let trima sgt...smpy rs nk benti stdy sbb nk dok umh ngn dia....prasaan aku kali ni laenn...dlu dok kuantan yg lg jauh  x nah aku rs smpy cni...aku anta dia pon aku x mau lpas dia sbb aku x sggup..x sggup tgk dia da x da dpan mata aku...x sggup tgk dia da x da nk glak bila aku ckp merapu2...x sggup tgk dia da x da nk senyum2 kt aku, nk nasihat2 kt aku,nk teman aku mkn bihun+koey teow sup kt  cik lan pastu bwk dia p jln2 lg..uhukkk suma tu da x da...dok kt umh ni feel dia da laenn...blum rs keseronokann...napa cuti sat sgt...rs mcm semggu ja cuti..aku rinduuuuu T_T..raya bru cuti..lambt??...sgt lmbat..semoga kita sempat jumpa lg...A.M.W saya rinduuuuuuuu sgt dkat kamu