just now i was blog walking from another blog to another blog n another n another..mostly from my batch la...kedah mari hahaha...stalker blog2 depa tuhh...n there was this blog dat really attract my full at-10-tion...her entry was bout her father..late father...she lost her father during d independence day which was during d ramadhan but before hari raya...it is so sad...i know how she felt..cz i exprienced d same way she felt...now i know why she didnt tke her MLS test...i heard maie told mdm sue'aida she was absent cz of family matters...n it was her father...i read her entry n it was closed to make me shed my tears...this was some part of what she wrote
my father left me during d independent day bcoz of heart attack
my father left without saying anythin to me
my father left me all alone
my father left me when we r going to celebrate d hr raya
my father left me without even c me as we las c each other was 2 months ago
my father also left me without saying anytin.. i just had d chance to whisper to him kalimah " lailahaillallah" thru d fon...he left me when there's only a few more days left b4 i came back to finish my holidays with him..
he left me when i was in kuantan struggling 4 my exam...he left me without see me 4 his last time (mak was so lucky to b there by his side)..i can no longer salam him when i want to go outside of penang by bus..he is no more to clebrate raya together with, clebrate his besday which is d same with ct nurhaliza n there is no more word " p ngn abah" when we go there, here or anywhere....
my fren there must be feel so miserable rite...cz i know d feeling...it's so painful that it can only be cured when our father stand in front of us smiling as he is healthy as he was younger before...but no..there's no such thing in diz world...u can only dream of him but cannot have him anymore...
to marvianna.....though u wont read dis blog but i pray dat u will be a really strong n tough girl..allah wont choose u if he knows dat u cannot bare this challenge...tke gud care of ur mom cz that is what left to us...make her happy..that is what im trying to do despite the problems that always make her susah hati thinking what would happen to her children if allah invites her to accompany abah...allah, u know d best for each of ur creation...aahh also to shubby for her late mother....suma org nk pegi time ramadhan nie...bertuahnya mereka...beri kami ketabahan ya allah melalui hari2 yg mendatang tanpa yg tersayang d sisi
